Birthday Girl & Her Thoughts

"A birthday is just the first day of another 365 day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip."

Some people dread it and some people plan months ahead for it. "It" being a birthday.

I say "bring it on." I feel better in my thirties than I did back in my twenties! I'm sure many of you feel the same. Is this our prime they speak of right? Where we walk more confidently, are more established, and feel the power of having an avid and active sex life? If so....I am sooooo ready!

I look younger, feel healthier, and walk like a lioness-brimming with attitude and ready to pounce. I finally feel like there is a purpose and plan in life. I'm done watching things fall apart and I'm grabbing the reigns and controlling it by Gods grace. The age of no more excuses. The age of no more procrastinating. The age where you have to deal with your own consequences because momma and daddy ain't gonna come to your rescue.

Today I turned 34. Doesn't bother me to share that with you. I sit here smiling because I have learned that by this age you cannot make everyone happy. And worrying about how everyone else feels about something shouldn't drive your decisions. They should be driven by need vs. want. By right vs. wrong. I can freely admit I say what I think 87.6% of the time. Hahahaha. Plus I'm very sarcastic by nature and that may offend some as it is.

I hope that the friends that I have on this day....are okay with me being me. Not trying to change me, not telling me to bite my tongue, not assuming I know every feeling you are feeling, not believing that I am a mind reader. I am compassionate, forgiving, honest, trustworthy, and a bucket of fiery fun!

I make new friends every year and I lose friends every year. That is the cycle of life. It saddens me at times and at others doesn't bother me one lick. Friendships should be easy but you gotta maintain them! Water them like flowers so they continue to bloom. But if you know it has run its course just let it be. Don't hash things out repeatedly. If it can be repaired it will be.

I felt so blessed for all the birthday wishes today. Over 130 social media birthday messages as well as texts, phone calls and even emails from over seas. It touched my heart that you paused for a moment in your life to think of mine. Thank you thank you thank you!

It's hard to admit that I am hurt that some messages and calls never came. But you win some you lose some. One day they will wake up and realize they've lost me. And I'm a pretty rad treasure.

But I'm only human! I may always appear to have it all together. Rocking this life everyday. Waking up happy pooping rainbows and singing show tunes. But I am fragile too. I feel sadness, I get stressed out, I get overwhelmed, I have problems....the difference is that I don't revolve my life around them. I move on with my day and know that tomorrow is nothing but new opportunities and new moments to be created.

Well tonight I will go to bed with a full heart and a full belly. Tomorrow---well another shot at being wonderful! Take your shot and make it count!



Goodnight and sorry for the random thoughts!