Moment of Truth and My Many Thanks

This is me....being very transparent with you. My hands are shaking and my heart is beating....

Past 8 years- I was down 101lbs- Up 50 lbs- Down 20 lbs...
You see the payoff. 
You didn't see the suffering.

You see a pretty and confident woman, who you assume has it all together with a perfect life.

You didn't see the tears of an obese woman. The sweat and fear I conquered. The cries out to the Lord for help with my obsession with food. The hate I felt for myself when I couldn't be the woman I thought I deserved to be.

You see the suffering?....that's something that will always be there. Being obese is a disease. A mental disorder. It's a fill to a void. You can't fix fat you can correct it but you MUST repair your mental before your physical.

This void I felt? Loneliness, lost, confused, hidden, fat, less than.... It's filled! My God has never forsaken me, my husband has always loved me, my kids have never seen me as less than what I am....Me.

I can attribute this to wanting better for my future, to be able to keep up with my kids, to wake up each day excited for a new adventure God has given me!

Life change has taught me more than losing weight and living healthy. It's taught me about the importance of helping others. Helping them change, to focus, to dream, to explore, to give, and to live.

I am so in love with this life! 


‪#‎NeverGiveUp‬ ‪#‎DreamsDoComeTrue‬ ‪

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